Wednesday, September 30, 2009

"The first heaven we experience is when we realize int he depths of our heart that we live under the eye of God. The question we must ask the heart is, 'Am I comfortable under the eye of God? Or is God getting too close?' We are strange and lovely creatures. We can ache for God tremendously yet find ourselves getting nervous if God gets too close. After all, the closer God gets, the more we hear the call to be divinized [sanctified?]. It is both exciting and frightening to hear that call. Being divinized is still part of the unknown even though it is our baptismal invitation. We prefer to keep the comfortable masks that we know rather than go through the purifying process of becoming like unto God."
Macrina is a Benedictine monastic at St. Scholastica monastary in Fort Smith, Arkansas. (read more about her here)

I think that this same sensation occurs when entering into any kind of deeper relationship. This squirming feeling when someone is looking at only you. We are relational creatures and react in similar ways to similar stimuli.

1 comment:

  1. this is a calling for no more masks. thanks for your support the past couple days. life ain't right. but life is still good. here's to more pain, more suffering, more growth and then to more grace and love to cover all that shit with the glory of knowing God more intimately, both individually and collectively. crying out for the return to reveling in God's ever-assuring grasp on our whole-selves. surreal-ness continues to envelope me as our paths cross...

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