Wednesday, September 30, 2009

"The first heaven we experience is when we realize int he depths of our heart that we live under the eye of God. The question we must ask the heart is, 'Am I comfortable under the eye of God? Or is God getting too close?' We are strange and lovely creatures. We can ache for God tremendously yet find ourselves getting nervous if God gets too close. After all, the closer God gets, the more we hear the call to be divinized [sanctified?]. It is both exciting and frightening to hear that call. Being divinized is still part of the unknown even though it is our baptismal invitation. We prefer to keep the comfortable masks that we know rather than go through the purifying process of becoming like unto God."
Macrina is a Benedictine monastic at St. Scholastica monastary in Fort Smith, Arkansas. (read more about her here)

I think that this same sensation occurs when entering into any kind of deeper relationship. This squirming feeling when someone is looking at only you. We are relational creatures and react in similar ways to similar stimuli.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

squibnocket



these are some of my favorite cards ever. they sold them in the store Cool Stuff in columbia, mo. a couple years ago i bought lane walker foard's collection of postcards "my basic needs: food clothing shelter you" and it was awesome. but i think i lost it. the card above is a perfect (yet small fonted) example of how awesome his writing is.

here's another card that i own. i meant to send it to my friend nina years and years ago but couldn't let it go. or i couldn't write something inside that could possibly rival what was on the cover.

"of all the things i'm not very good at one is missing you. i mean, you know how a waterbed will undulate for a while after the other person gets up? that's sort of how i feel now that you've gone. so while you're off in your place being consequential, doing your thing, know that i am here pining for your return. and when you do, be warned. for you will be greeted with the kind of frantic, tearful, emotional zeal usually reserved for a daytime talk show's "reuniting siblings" episode."

how wonderful.

one other place to buy them: (here)

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Sophia

"My older self, glancing back over simple chords and hazardous poetry, likes to think I’m older, wiser, more mature, more eloquent, more artful, more poignant, more contemporary. But that’s unfair. The concept has changed but the approach has always been the same: to become so completely entrenched in something that it becomes a great big clumsy mummy outfit wrapped around all arms and legs: a metaphysical form of suffocation. Sure, back then, I was young, na├»ve, unenlightened, untraveled, virtuous, good-natured, and always on time. But the world of youth was where I tried on new ideas, new outfits, new names, and new rhyme schemes—-a world where the banjo was my journal, where Sofia Coppola was my imaginary confidant, and where singing out of tune was perfectly OK!"
- "What's in a Name?" by Sufjan Stevens

sufjan

photo by mary (who got us tickets, yay!!!)

isn't he adorable and fratty? kinda like asher roth's broseph. so matt and i drove up 3.5 hours to champaign, IL, (way cute college town) to see sufjan and cryptacize on saturday. it was one of the best shows i've ever seen. very enjoyable. because there's no new album for this tour, it was the greatest hits ("transfiguration," "that dress looks nice on you," "chicago," others...) plus some new stuff. this is one of them, very pretty:

If It Kills Me - Jason Mraz

from the so you think you can dance tryouts - also courtesy of allie who found the song

Wednesday, September 23, 2009


and tonight.


Sweet Disposition - The Temper Trap

I just realized, through the help of itunes, that this song is in 500 days of summer. I heard it recently on 89.1 and tried to write down some lyrics "won't stop til it's over" and "a moment of love a dream a laugh" while driving/avoiding getting in an accident, so i could look it up when i got home. it is a truly beautiful song. I feel like it's what "mysterious ways" by U2, "sometimes" by james, and "send me on my way" by rusted root are to me - beautiful windows down, life-meaning giving songs. wonderful.

in other news: I heard a podcast from To the Best of Our Knowledge a couple weeks ago on David Foster Wallace. The name was vaguely familiar to me, but I don't think I could have connected him to his famous "Infinite Jest." Anyways, DFW made a commencement address at Kenyon College (where?) and they published it in a tiny book called "This is Water." I finally was able to get it from the library. Here's something I like from it. It just sounds like wisdom.

"This is not a matter of virtue - it's a matter of my choosing to do the work of somehow altering or getting free of my natural, hardwired default setting, which is to be deeply and literally self-centered, and to see and interpret everything through this lens of self.

"People who can adjust their natural default setting this way are often described as being, quote, 'well-adjusted,' which I suggest to you is not an accidental term."

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Monday, September 14, 2009



I'm heading to the Billiken Club on SLU campus on Friday to see Maserati. This dude was there in 2008. Shame on me and my ignorance.

crayons


"The Dance 1" by Christian Faur - this is a bunch of crayons on end.

It reminds me of an episode of Mr. Roger's Neighborhood where they talk about how crayons are made.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

fair

(the sartorialist)
I feel like this look of men's dress shoes on girls is almost over, but i love how easy this outfit seems.

Friday, September 11, 2009

beautiful


from poolga via jeff

make-up of makeup.


simple blueprint

i posted this because it's a really cool picture. i think this is makeup. i wondered awhile ago what actually makes up makeup. i looked on wikipedia and they were unhelpful (sadly). is it ground up rocks? what is is actually made of?

I just bought this for my brother and sister in law, who are living in chicago. hopefully random gifts will make up for the multitude of birthdays i forget.

Monday, September 7, 2009

"i dunno...i just wear stuff."


absurdist theatre





one of the high school girls i hang out with is really into absurdist theatre. how interesting. i think it would be really really hard to learn these lines. and it would be really hard to be in the audience and pick up every line. it seems like these plays were made for video (which is impossible).




this is one of my favorite high schoolers. see her flickr (here).